Wordless Wednesday

I saw this on Facebook and I liked it. And right now it gives you a good idea of what my insides look like right now. No wonder I’m so uncomfortable, baby girl is taking up all kinds of room in my tiny torso.

I love this special time that I have with my inside baby, but I’m definitely ready to have an outside baby. So, whenever you’re ready sweet girl we are all ready to meet you!


Pregnancy Update: Week 39

How Far Along: 39 weeks. ONE WEEK TO GO! Unless she’s stubborn and wants to be late, but my doctor promised me she wouldn’t make me go past 41 weeks!

Size of baby: She’s still the size of a watermelon….just a tad on the heavier side this week, maybe. Measuring about 19-22 inches and weighing in between 7 – 7.5 pounds. Neither Steve nor I were that big when we were born so we’ll see if she is.

Total Weight Gain/Loss: When I was at the doctor last week I hadn’t gained any more weight!! YAY!! But I hadn’t lost any either so I’m still up 42 pounds total.

Maternity Clothes: Well, since I’m working from home until she’s born it’s more like pajamas. But yeah when I go out I’m wearing maternity stuff just so I don’t stretch out my regular clothes.

Gender: BABY GIRL!!

Movement: She’s still an active baby and the other night I thought she was going to go Alien on my stomach, but after feeling her position the next morning I think she just was working her way down. Not out, just down.

Sleep: It’s not good. Not good at all. What I miss: Seeing my feet. Sleeping on anything but my side so my hips and shoulders don’t hurt so bad. Being able to walk and not waddle. Not having to pee a thousand times a day and night. Being able to get up off of anything without assistance. And being able to really play with Buddy – he wants me to chase him around on the floor but that’s not happening and I feel bad.

Cravings: Still really just my Oreo’s and milk.

Aversions: Nope, not anymore.

Symptoms: I’m pregnant and I know it that is for sure!

Labor Signs: I thought Hurricane Sandy was going to bring Baby Sydney because I was feeling sick on Monday and thought I was having contractions but after some water and just sitting down and resting those contractions were really just Braxton Hicks.

Belly Button in or out: It’s out.

Wedding rings on or off: They’ve both been off for a while. I miss them.

Best moment this week: Steve and I went to dinner on Sunday night as a last night out just the two of us before we have a baby. It was really nice.

Looking forward to: Meeting my daughter. I’m glad she didn’t come during the hurricane, and I’m really ok waiting for her to decide when she comes but I am really excited to have her here finally.

Pregnancy Update: Week 38

How Far Along: 38 weeks! 2 weeks to go!

Size of baby: Still the size of a watermelon. Measuring anywhere between 19 and 22 inches and weighing around 6.5lbs.

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I’m up a lot more than I expected to gain that’s for sure. People are surprised when I tell them its 42 pounds and they say I look great – that makes me feel good. It’s the people that constantly call me the fat pregnant lady that really hurt my feelings.

Maternity Clothes: You betcha though since it’s gotten colder and I don’t have any long sleeve maternity shirts I’m wearing regular shirts and hoping I’m not stretching them out.

Gender: BABY GIRL!!

Movement: She’s still a really active baby and she’s actually found this one spot that she loves to push her foot out which kind of hurts and I wouldn’t be surprised if I’m bruised on the inside right there. It’s also really kind of neat to see her movements because her feet/arms actually stick out since she’s bigger and stronger now.

Sleep: It’s getting worse and worse because my hips are achy and I get up to pee a lot but I do still sleep and I get a nap in every afternoon.

What I miss: I miss my feet being of normal size… they’re a tad on the swollen size! And I miss not really hurting all over but at this point I think it’s really just safe to say I miss not being pregnant.

Cravings: I’m still in love with my Oreo’s!

Aversions: Nothing anymore. Symptoms: Heartburn, swollen feet, achy body, no sleep, sore hips in the morning, and weird numbness in the tips of 3 fingers on my right hand (seriously, that one takes the cake as weirdest pregnancy symptom!)

Labor Signs: Nope. Not a single contraction and really very few Braxton Hicks contractions even. I would even venture to guess I still have my mucous plug because I haven’t had any contractions so I’m probably not dilated at all.

Belly Button in or out: Out! Out! Out!

Wedding rings on or off: Off… and I miss them!

Best moment this week: We went to the pumpkin patch this weekend with some friends and their kids and that was a lot of fun (and walking!). I can’t wait until next year when we’ve got a little one of our own to do that kind of stuff with.

Looking forward to: Even though I’m crazy anxious and nervous I’m definitely looking forward to meeting our baby girl soon!

Boba Air Carrier

I usually don’t do these types of blog posts but we’ve been debating on a carrier for Baby Sydney and The Art of Making a Baby has this awesome giveaway so this is counting as an entry for me. We have no idea if she’ll even like being in a carrier, but we’re going for it anyway.

I recently found a coupon code for a free sling from Seven Slings and I’m pretty excited about that, but like I said…. Steve is not so excited about that. Plus, it could just be a little too girlie looking for him. And a lady I work with got us a super cute Petunia Pickle Bottom sling…but again, too girlie for Steve so he’s not so excited about that. He REALLY wants to get a carrier – so we’ve been looking and looking. And they’re kind of expensive especially when you have no idea what will work for you and your baby.

For the last couple months I’ve been following The Art of Making a Baby and she has this really awesome giveaway for a Boba Air. According to her, it’s lightweight (.7lbs) which makes it convenient for a quick trip or a hot day. And I will very likely not want to wear a heavy carrier plus a baby next summer! I hate being too hot so this could be quite perfect for us.

It also comes with and is easily stored in a very handy little bag so it would be perfect for keeping in the car or stuffing in your stroller as an extra method of carrying baby like they did on their trip to Disney.

I did some researching on their website – like any good parent would do right?! And I love that you can use this as a front or back carrier. I think we will want/need one with that option (do they all have that option? I have no idea…. clearly I need to do some more research!).

It’s made for children 15-45lbs so it would be a few months before we could put it to some use, but I do like the fact that it will hold a heavier child so we could get quite a bit of use out of it.

And it isn’t all that bad on the budget… priced at only $65 it is less than any of the other carriers we’ve been thinking about.

So there you have it. I’m blogging this simply to try to win this giveaway because that would be awesome, but after looking in to it I think we would seriously consider this or another one of the Boba carriers.

Pregnancy update: Week 37

How Far Along: 37 weeks. FULL TERM! That’s crazy. CRAZY.

Size of baby: Still the size of a watermelon. Measuring anywhere between 19 and 22 inches and weighing around 6.5lbs.

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Well I’m certainly excelling in this category for sure.

Maternity Clothes: Mostly yes, but I do have a pair of jeans I can wear with my BeBand (maybe others, but I like the way those fit still so those are the only ones I wear really). And I had to dig out some long sleeve shirts since it’s cold and I don’t have any of those in maternity. At this point I’m just making it work.

Gender: BABY GIRL!!

Movement: She’s still pretty active & I love that. I think I’m going to miss that the most. That and actually seeing her move is really cool. Lately she’s been sticking something (a foot perhaps?) in to my right side and you can quite clearly see it on that side. Not like the foot itself, but you can definitely tell something is sticking out over there.

Sleep: This is getting to be more and more of a joke. I’m so uncomfortable and I get up to pee so much that I’m lucky to get whatever I can and I’m just tired all the time.

What I miss: I miss a lot of things, but mostly I miss being not pregnant now. I enjoy parts of being pregnant but I’m just feeling large and almost incapable of doing simple things that it’s kind of frustrating. But I’m all for her sticking around for as long as she needs to be inside me. I’ll definitely miss not feeling her inside me.

Cravings: I’ve been enjoying apples lately – which is great cause I bought a big bag and then one of our neighbors brought us a big bag so we’ve had a lot of apples and I’m the only one eating them! I also still have my daily dose of Oreo’s because I just can’t give those up!

Aversions: Nothing.

Symptoms: Heartburn, back aches, soreness, inability to sleep sometimes, having to pee a lot, being hungry but at the same time not having enough room to really fill me up, not being able to see my feet – or anything below my belly!, I can’t put on shoes if they don’t slip on, and it’s nearly impossible to get up off the floor/couch/bed without some assistance.

Labor Signs: Nope! So far nothing. Even my Braxton Hicks contractions are very few and far between (like some days I don’t have them at all and when I do it’s really only because I’ve done too much or I haven’t had enough water so as long as I drink some water and sit down they go away pretty quick).

Belly Button in or out: Out.

Wedding rings on or off: Definitely off. And I really started to miss them this morning.

Best moment this week: We had baby prep class this past weekend and that was informative. I think Steve feels better about the whole labor thing now that he’s gone through it. And I’m officially full term this week which is pretty exciting. It also means she could literally come at any time which is scary, but really cool at the same time.

Looking forward to: We don’t have anything big coming up in the next few weeks, basically we’re just going to take it easy and wait for baby!

Pregnancy Update: Week 36

How Far Along:  36 weeks. That means there are only 4 weeks left. FOUR. Or 28 days. That is not a lot of time. NOT AT ALL.

Size of baby: SIZE OF A WATERMELON. A Watermelon. That’s not small at all. Still measuring between 19 and 22 inches, but her weight could be up to about 6.5 pounds (which would be about what I weighed at birth)

Total Weight Gain/Loss: It’s pretty safe to assume that I’m up exactly the number of weeks I am. Because that would be the rate I have been going up until this point and I’m supposed to be gaining a pound a week so there’s that.

Maternity Clothes: Why yes, yes I am. And I’m still wearing some regular clothes (a couple pair of jeans with my BeBand and some regular shirts as long as they’re long enough and not too tight cause I don’t want to stretch them out)

Gender: BABY GIRL!!

Movement: She is certainly active. And right now her movements are actually hurting me. I don’t know if it’s a foot or an elbow but she is getting some jabs in for sure.

Sleep: I’m definitely more tired lately so I go to bed earlier but I’m not sleeping solidly because of all the  getting up to pee so I don’t wake up feeling rested or anything.

What I miss: I miss not being so sore and sleeping well. And since it’s getting cold I miss not being able to really bend over to put on shoes.

Cravings: I still pretty much just crave Oreo’s on a regular (daily!) basis. Other than that I don’t (and really haven’t) had any strong cravings.

Aversions: Nothing really, I’m feeling pretty good.

Symptoms: I’m sore – mostly in my hips and I think that’s from sleeping on them. I feel large. I can’t see my feet. I can’t bend over and I don’t really move with grace or ease these days. It’s hard to get up off the couch. My feet and fingers are a little on the swollen side and they kind of hurt a bit so that’s not fun. And I still have that weird random half asleep feeling in my feet so that’s weird too. And lately my hands have been falling asleep at night. Basically, I’m definitely pregnant!!

Labor Signs: Nope. I don’t even really have a lot of Braxton Hicks these days, but I stay really hydrated so I don’t know if one has anything to do with the other.

Belly Button in or out: OUT!

Wedding rings on or off: Definitely off at this point.  

Best moment this week: Our family friend finished Sydney’s mural and it looks SO GOOD! My parents & brother came over this weekend and it was nice to spend some quality family time, lunch, and a little shopping with Mom while we dragged the boys with us. I also did some shopping for myself – nothing super fancy, just some nursing tanks and bras and some pajamas for after delivery but it was really nice just to buy something for myself. And with all of that I am now all packed for the hospital for both myself and for Sydney.

Looking forward to: Doing the last finishing touches to the nursery – some cleaning and hanging of the mirror over the dresser and it’ll be all ready for her. Also just finishing up the last of the things I want to get done around the house between now and whenever she decides to show up.

I hate deer.

I’m the daughter of a hunter. When I was younger my father went out with my Godfather, his son, and my brother to hunt deer. I don’t think they were very good at it though because they rarely ever came back with anything. Though I will NEVER forget the time I walked in to the garage and came face to face with a dead, hanging upside down, gutted deer. That was unpleasant to say the very least.

Anyway, my dad would always spot deer as we were driving. Sometimes they were so far off in the distance you had to strain your eyes just to make them out. But they were always there when he said they were. I never realized what kind of lesson he was teaching me, because I always look for deer. And even now I can spot them far off in the distance just like he can.

The ones I apparently cannot see? THE ONES THAT JUMP OUT IN FRONT OF ME. 

I have been driving for almost 15 years. I have never hit an animal. I’ve seen them (mostly deer, but once we did see a bear trying to cross the road). But never hit them.

Until the end of August. It was just before dawn (because I leave the house at 6-ish, this morning it was more on the “ish” side) and I was scanning the roads like I always do – especially come fall when it’s darker in the morning and the fawns are leaving their parents and those are the most stupid of all the deer.

And I got one. People say they come out of nowhere and I never believed how you couldn’t possibly see a deer coming at you. BUT YOU CAN’T. He was leaping across the road and by the time I saw him he was literally in front of me. I tried to stop (which is apparently not a good thing to do, in case you were wondering) but it was too late. I do think if I’d been going a little slower, or even seen him a few seconds before, I wouldn’t have hit him because I hit him on the very far side of my bumper on the passenger side (I was in the left lane). I did manage to throw this poor guy all the way across the road to the ditch on the right lane. It was definitely a fawn, which was probably lucky on my part because he was kind of small and didn’t do a ton of damage.

I quickly pulled off the road – that is after I like realized I was stopped in the middle of the left lane. I assessed the damage and cussed a lot and then I called Steve. Woke him up in the most fun way! He panicked – because of the baby and all – but I assured him that we were fine and that it was my car that was not. A very nice man (that worked at a body shop) came to my aide (thankfully I was still on the phone with Steve when he stopped cause I would have been a tad freaked out by that). He assessed my damage, asked if I was ok, and tied up my bumper and said that the damage wasn’t that bad so I could actually drive the car to the shop instead of waiting for a tow truck. Steve was on the phone the whole time so I asked a couple questions to make him (and me) feel better. The guy gave me his name and number in case the insurance people wanted to talk to him and we both went on our way. He followed me for a bit before I could make a turn around and it made me feel better that if anything should happen I knew he would stop again.

I headed home (which wasn’t very far because I had basically just left for work) to call the insurance company. I got made my claim and got to the claim department just as they were opening so the whole process was very quick. Our friend works at his father’s collision center so we had already told him we’d be in later with the car so after I got off the phone with the insurance company we headed over there. And then next door to pick up my rental. The rental people were really surprised that we had taken care of all of this in the 2-ish hours since the accident. That morning. Apparently some people are slower than I am. I don’t have time to waste so I don’t waste time. We were in our rental in no time (thank you, Enterprise!) and back on our merry way to get on with our day.

When I got home I did call the doctor because I wasn’t sure what to do in this situation – and I had received lots of advice to call just in case. So I called, figuring that since I didn’t hit the steering wheel with my belly and that I wasn’t having any bleeding or cramping or contractions I was fine and there would be no need to go in or anything.

I was not correct in my assumption.

Straight to Labor and Delivery for me! For some monitoring.

At this point, I had sent Steve on his way to an interview because I really figured I’d be maybe going in to the doctor’s office if anything at all. He asked if he should come back and go with me, but that seemed silly because I really didn’t want him canceling his interview only a few hours before it was set to start and I knew that I would be fine.

I headed to L&D and my doctor had already called ahead to let them know I would be arriving shortly so I didn’t have really any wait. I was hooked up to the machine by 10 and so began my 4 hours of monitoring. Since I wasn’t really sure how long I’d be there I made sure to bring my Kindle so I had something to do other than play on my phone (and then not drain my phone battery, just in case.) 

For those of you that don’t know, monitoring is super boring. You lay on a bed, hooked up to machines that measure your contractions and the baby’s heartbeat and just wait for it to be over. It was really cool to hear the heartbeat (and some hiccups too) for a couple hours. I tried to record it but that didn’t really work out too well which was kind of disappointing.

I read for a little bit. I watched some TV. But mostly I napped. And falling asleep to the sound of my daughter’s beating heart was pretty amazing.

By the time I was waking up from my nap it had been nearly 4 hours since I’d been hooked up to the machines (but only about 2 since I had fallen asleep – which is still a pretty good nap). I got up to pee and barely had gotten settled back in the bed before the doctor and nurse were coming in to check out my readings (not a single contraction and a good strong heartbeat). All of that meant that I would be free to go!

It was definitely a long day and I was starving (because if anything had been wrong there would have been an emergency c-section in my future which meant I couldn’t eat). After I left the hospital I headed straight to Subway for the meatball sub I had been basically drooling over since I got there because I had seen it on TV. And then it was back home to catch up on my work for the day.

I certainly have learned to be a little extra careful when I’m driving in the morning because something about being in that accident just reinforced the knowledge that I have this tiny little girl that I need to protect. For now and forever. Just like my Mom does for me. And suddenly, I have the smallest idea of the love that my mom feels for me. And for her love I am forever grateful because she has been showing me all my life how to be a good mom and I hope that I’ll be half the mom she has been to me.